Ragdoll (Unmentionables, 17)

My finger is loose. Just a little bit.
The joints stretched out. Knuckles aren’t bones
anymore, they’ve been surgically replaced

with giggles. Loosey goosey giggles.
Fingers become a hand, spine, arms & legs.
My hips are loose, too. They were made that way.

When the ambulance went by, there were wings
behind it, angels (I believe), tethered
in the wind as if by ribbons. That’s me,

now, how I feel. As if I have been tied
together, loosely, with pretty ribbons,
satin ribbons, tangling in a tight twist.

Loose joints. Loose in body. Loose in mind. Loose
in time. Time to pause. Everything pauses.
Time is stretched out. Freeze. Frame. Stop. Motion. Yes.

It’s not a breaking, just disconnection.
The sentence of my body has become
a paragraph. The words of my bones stretch

apart, away from each other, only
loosely associated. Commas choke
down into periods, the same words

but separate, and somehow still something
that belongs together. Almost. My mind
stutters. The giggles vaguely remember

aching, injured into numbness. Thoughts, too.
Sound reaches me through silence, so slowly.
Sensation, too. Floating. Hammer, anchor,

stirrup disconnect. When I walk, the cloud –
the cloud I have become jostles,
jostles all the jumbled bits leisurely

along. Run. Running is impossible.
When I turn, it is little by little.
Like dancing in outer space, or something

heavy suspended in a tornado.
Graceful, beautiful, awkwardly lovely.
Pieces moving in the same direction

only because when they began moving
they were all together. When the wind stops,
when gravity begins, what will happen?

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7 responses to “Ragdoll (Unmentionables, 17)

  1. Wow. This poem has some exceptional lines and images. I especially like what is happeneing in the last four stanzas.

    • The reaction to this piece has been surprising. Evidently I am not the only person feels that sense of disconnection sometimes. It means a great deal to me when you think I’ve done something right in a poem. Almost a kind a biofeedback. 🙂

  2. Found a typo! Obvious missing word near the end. Can fix when I get home.

  3. You captured the essence of ragdoll physics in this – also reminded me of Sally in the Nightmare Before Xmas

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